I recommend reading with this song in the background >> Fleuri – Soldier.

“My watch is over, now I rest”

It is a feeling mixed with the dread of an undesirable outcome and the relief that comes with knowing it will soon be over.

The precipice is the final moment before a potentially life changing event. It is the edge of the cliff you jump off with the hope that you will fly, the fear that you may plummet and the relief that this problem will no longer exist after that leap.

The eve is the moment just before you jump off that cliff.

The concept of the precipice is that regardless of the outcome, the final result will be freedom from the plague of preparation, freedom from hope, freedom from longing. Win or lose, after that leap, freedom will ensue. While the gained freedom is fleeting and temporary, I want it regardless.

The eve of the Precipice applies to job interviews, examinations, projects at work, anything you cannot wait to be done with.

I understand that there will always be obstacles to overcome. I know that in life, like air to a vacuum, new problems will always arise to usurp solved ones. But I ache to rid myself of these specific burdens. I long for a restart, a new challenge, something where the odds are better in my favour.

So I embrace the precipice, I welcome it. For with it, comes a new beginning, a new challenge and a new path. As all problems before it, so too will this new challenge plague me with worry and I will long for the precipice to free me from it. However, this is one of the few times where the journey itself matters more than the destination.

“My watch is over, I journey to the next precipice”

Have you ever experienced the unholy marriage of dread and relief that comes on the eve of the precipice? Tell me about it in the comments.